A Crazy Dream

Greetings everyone,

How is the New Year working out for all of you? I hope it is incredible because by the grace of whatever is up there, 2017 is incredible to me. I am writing this entry to share to you a dream that I had last week. I just remembered it now and got creep out by it.

So this dream took place in the future, maybe around five or ten years from now and by this time everybody that I know has already gone through massive changes in life. However, my best friend and I are still the same person as we are today, and if you have not figured it out, it is very creepy. In this dream of mine I still have the same friends as I do right now and I am so happy to see that, because I love the friends that I do have right now. 

I remembered in my dream that my friends and I are in a café hanging out. All of them, except for my best friend and I, are talking about grown up stuffs: work, family and life in general. My best friend and I are just sitting there having little to no idea what they are babbling about. When they are not talking about work, family, or life in general, they would talk about their trips or travels to other countries and other marvelous places, which I guess is what you do when you become a successful person. I admit that all the talks about grown up stuffs made me feel insecure, and I guess that is what my best friend was feeling, too.

I just realized now that that dream of mine was my biggest or worst fear, and it is being left behind. I hate the idea that everyone is moving on with their lives and I am just here stuck in the sideline doing the same things that I have been doing ever since. Maybe it is my pride talking, because I do want to see my friends being successful at what they do and achieving all their goals in life, but also I want it for myself as well. I want to be successful at everything that I do, I want to be able to show people that I am successful because of the hard work that I put in, and I know it is so selfish of me, but I guess it is not only I who wants that.

That dream was really a wake-up call for me to get my life together. The dream was kind of a glimpse to my future if I keep on doing the same things that I am doing right now, and that is slacking off in school thinking that I can get away with everything because I have a loving family who supports me no matter what will happen. I am really creep out by that dream but in a weird way it gave me the motivation that I need to do my best in everything that I set my mind to, starting off with doing great in school. So based on my experience, motivation really comes from weird but incredible places. And that is the reason why I am writing all this.

Love,

Niña Liza